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I really just need to get this out because I feel like I am going to explode if I don’t say this somewhere and I don’t know who I could talk to about it so
Sometimes I feel like the city isn’t for me. There really are so many things I hate about it. Pretentious people, large corporations (I literally live next door to all of them), pressure to have the body of a 12 year old boy (because apparently no one wants you unless you do), 13 FUCKING DOLLARS for cigarettes, public transportation, having to be skeptical of everyone passing you on the street, always on the go and rushing everywhere, delays, deadlines, etc etc etc the list goes on.
I feel like I should just move to the middle of nowhere where you aren’t expected to look perfect and people aren’t going to judge you based on your appearance and what you have. There is so much fucking competition here to one up or impress others. The city is making me bitter and its making me hate myself. Living here will make you feel ugly and broke. God, I’ve honestly never felt so bad about myself my entire life.